What are nerves?
It’s when an elephant is sitting on your chest
when it’s so obvious all that’s there
is thin cotton and cheap logos.
It’s when breath can’t be caught
and the heart’s constant flutter
leaves you uneasy and flighted.
It’s seeing your loved one’s eyes
ready to be the earthquake
to tsunami your full heart.
It’s the endless carted train of thoughts
that chug in through one ear
out the other
and around your head
in a never-ending circle.
It’s the unknown.
The travel to a foreign land
where your mind and body
can’t so easily adjust
to the rush of exotic people,
It’s the adaptation
when your routine is finally yours
and you’re no longer your routine.
It’s the little things you realize
when you get out of bed
and confidently go about your day.
It’s when second guessing
is no longer your constant.
It’s getting your sea legs
and finally saying
“i’ve got this.”
It’s catching yourself
calling this foreign land
The butterflies replace elephants
Cotton replaces tension
The tsunami passes
And the earthquake halts.
It’s when nerves become knowledge
And you’re finally home.